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ini hari sabtu, hari yang bagi sebagian orang membahagiakan
namun knapa tidak dengan saya?
hari ini, pagi ini ntah mengapa saya merasakan sesuatu yang sangat2 membebani
rasanya saya malu untuk menatap wajah2 itu...

sebagai manusia biasa saya hanya mampu mengadu pada sang kuasa, ntah bagaimana airmata ini turun sendirinya disela2 doa yang selalu saya panjatkan di setiap pagi itu

Ya Allah. engakulah mana mengetahui dalamnya hati seseorang, engkau yang maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk ku...jika ini memang jalan yang harus ku tempuh maka kuatkanlah hati ini jauhkan dari rasa tak puas....dan biarkan saya untuk tak memperdulikan anggapan orang lain.

pernahkah kalian merasa sendiri padahal kalian berada di sekeliling orang disetiap harinya?
pernahkah kalian merasa tak dihargai padahal dulu kalian dibutuhkan?
pernahkan kalian merasa tak berguna padahal dulu kalian adalah andalannya?
pernahkah kalian merasa tak dianggap padahal dulu kalian dibangga2kan?


sedih....
itu yang saya rasakan pagi ini, saya merasa tak berguna T_T

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you